I am back........and changed

Sorry it has taken so long to update this in any way but I am still in recovery mode. I started to get sick 2 days before we returned and was not quite expecting the "re-entry" effects. I am still sleeping any chance I get. I take the kids to school come home and jump back in bed for as long as Diego is on the T.v. I really have to force myself to stay up for any long period of time. I think this sinus thing is playing into that. I really had no expectations for the trip. Becky had warned us of this before we left. Expectations could be to high, something could go wrong etc. So rather than having the usually to high expectations I have I let it go. God graciously made that quite easy. Just like Karen and Janelle the card making was the catalyst to get us there. When we came out we all were moved and led in different ways. I am not very good with words and anyone who really knows me knows I am not always clear on articulating what I am trying to say but this is just a little bit about how I have been changed.

After listening to some of the testimonies I really became very aware of my own sin in my life and that I would not really want to share my testimony with anyone. I feel people (even christians ) are very judgmental and of course sinners and would possibly never see me the same way again. Like Janelle, sometimes you are allowed to share with some people, bits at a time. And I also am very emotional and dont know how much I could actually get through. All in all it was definately an eye opener that we are all rescued...as I said before In my other post.

Second, praying the names of God . Becky gave all of us a list of the names of God one being Abba (Father). WOW. Some of you know my dad died when I was 23. I had never until this trip prayed to my ABBA FATHER. All those years without my dad and GOD my Father was waiting to hear from me . It was quite a different prayer than that to MY LORD or my usual beginnings to prayer.

I have more to say but I am going to go for now.....I should spend some time with Cash and Diego . I just pray I stay changed.....................please pray for that as well.